Sunday, March 29, 2009

Benign Neglect



MY UTERUS IS SUFFERING FROM BENIGN NEGLECT.
When a person is severely mal-nourished, they slowly begin to die. Their stomachs swell as they become physiologically agitated and starved by imbalanced and inconsistant nourishment. It feeds off of itself and eventually will refuse traditional methods of nourishment. The stomach reaches a point where it can no longer perform its intended duties without intervention. The worsening conditioning effects other bodily characteristics and functions. Without resolving the starvation, there is no resolving the other ermerging issues.

What I have described, is the condition of my uterus. I have neglected it by virtue of proper nurishment (diet & spiritual) and care (physical/health). Instead of honoring it every day, I have cursed it for the pain it brings me every month. I didn't realize that the pain and the increase in menstrual flow (up to 3 times per month) was my uterus crying out to me for help and attention. I didn't comprehend the language it spoke and I never tried to take the course to learn the language. That is the nature of the benign neglect; not caring enough; being too self-absorbed to see that you are only hurting yourself. Bad things don't always happen because of intention; but, some times thru LACK of attention.

The extreme pain I liken to my worst birthing pains and I have an extremely heavy flow. Instead of taking heed to the distress calls, I muzzled the flow using 2 super-plus sized tampons and a heavy overnight sanitary pad WITH wings and still she (my uterus) would bleed through it all inside of forty minutes. I took Vicodin to muffle the scream of the pain.
It is only now, days after being checked by my OB-GYN and being told that what should have been an organ less than the size of a woman's fist is now the size of a cantaloupe.... it is only now that I recall the doctor describing the misplacement and deformity of my uterine lining. I remember that he couldn't even see or assess the condition of my ovaries because the "huge" uterus (he said that over and over again) was in the way.

TAKING OUT THE TRASH
The fibroid tumors that are growing on my uterus and causing the uterus itself to enlarge are benign growths that form on the interior muscular wall of the uterus. They have also developed on the exterior of the uterus. Let's call fibroids what they really are... “trash bags.” Our bodies are toxic and the proof is in the condition of our major eliminative organs (colon, liver, kidneys, lungs, and skin). They are either sluggish or just don’t work at all. When in this condition, the body’s knows to cause an internal trash bag to form in order to hold toxic fluidic waste. This is the tumor. Therefore; a tumor is a trash bag. Tumors hold waste to prevent the waste from circulating throughout the body. Fibroid tumors range in sizes from small cherries to grapefruits and cantaloupe AND beyond! And wouldn't you know it, mine are cantaloupe size! ...that's a LOT of trash! ... a lot of toxins.

WHERE DOES THE TRASH COME FROM?
The majority of these toxins come into our bodies thru fine grains and dairy products... Processing of dairy products is a whole different conversation! But if you study it, you will understand why they are considered toxic... especially cheese! So what toxins/trash will we literally find in our fibroid tumor/trash bags? Mucus, parasites and worms, and other toxins, too.

INCONCLUSIVE CONCLUSION
Is it too late to save my uterus? While I cursed it monthly, I never really believed that it would leave on its own. I figured I would have to conjure up or exxagerate a condition to have it taken out, put out, kicked to the operating room curb. But now that I am facing being left by her, I am not so sure that I am ready to be forced to extract my "life force" the very essence of my "person".

Seeking Peace,
shYne

1 comment:

  1. A wonderfully powerful piece on so many levels. Thanks for sharing this.

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